Sleep Apnea - A sleeping and breathing disorder...

Those who go through the pain can only understand it truly...

From past few years...I am also suffering from the sleep disorder called...'Sleep Apnea'..
Like many, even me and my family didn't know anything about this sleep disorder..
When i couldn't sleep and was very tired and stressed... for few months we were clueless what was happening to me...when i started falling while standing and sleeping while eating and even blacking out between conversation...and i could not do anything about it.....it was very very painful and stressful. I consulted few doctors but they also possibly didn't knew about this disease. 
Then someone told us about a doctor that could possibly understand my problem and help me...I went there told my problem and...he said you are suffering from sleep Apnea..get tested to confirm it...He told me what was the symptoms....and no one will understand the pain i was going through...i was in tears...at last there was someone who knew about my sufferings...
Finally, i got tested and i was diagnosed with critical case of sleep and breathing disorder that could lead to coma as well...
Well, its almost more than 6 years now.. i am using the CPAP machine while sleeping. Life is better now. I am trying to live life as normal as it could be...Machine is just a substitute...i still miss my carefree sound sleep...

May you all be healthy..let there be less pain...less suffering and more happiness and love in this world...
Thanks for reading...
Love you all... :)

(Note-this piece of writing is based on personal experience.)

Frozen Shoulder

Do you know what 'Frozen Shoulder' is?
Maybe you have heard it before.. like me....
But I never knew i'll also suffer with this problem...
There's lot of pain in my right shoulder and hand...
Can't move it without --- OOHHH!! OOUUCHH!! :o
So...for now i have been adviced to give full rest to my right hand...
I know...It is near to impossible...but i am trying...yes! i said 'trying'... :-)
And in addition i have to go for Physiotherapy Treatment daily for at least a week...
Will have to do some exercise at home too...lets hope i get relief from pain soon...

So...What is 'FROZEN SHOULDER'?

Frozen shoulder is when the shoulder is painful and loses motion because of inflammation.

Causes:-
The joint capsule of the shoulder joint has ligaments that hold the shoulder bones to each other.
When the capsule becomes inflamed, the shoulder bones are unable to move freely in the joint.

To know more about Frozen Shoulder - Click the link below -
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0001490/

PAIN -- it has become integral part of my life...sad but true...

Lets hope and Pray that no one suffers from any kind of pain...

Love You All ...... :-)

Pain Behind My Smile.... :-)

LIFE -- A Prayer...

As i take a step forward in life...i fear..
problems and tensions now i can't...bear..
life is not easy, it fills my eyes with..tears..
i pray to God, make our lives... easier..

Maa Sunao Mujhe Woh Kahani........Awesome song...must listen...dedicated to all MOTHERS.... :)

I LOVE MY PAIN...!! by Isha Jalan

{Isha sent me this poem and a note to publish on my webpage...Thank you Isha.. its so nice of you...the poem is brilliant...people will definitely like it...}


I LOVE MY PAIN...!!
I think I've started loving my pain,
because at the end, what it gives is "absolute gain!"
When i was popular, people talked to me so happily,
but when in pain, their feelings changed so rapidly!
Initially, i just began to cry, wondering,
If this was the final goodbye...
The one's whom i considered my TRUE FRIENDS,
changed their minds, even faster than new trends.
When they didn't bother about me, and celebrated merrily,
Luckily, I had some people with the name, called FAMILY!
They woke up the whole night, and finally i could see some light.
There was a time, when i used to say, 'mom, you lack understanding'
But this very thing, was the peak of my misunderstanding!
They smiled and hugged me along with a tear,
and taught me never to look back at the rear.
Now, if i see someone in That very pain,
I can understand it well, and dont act insane!
YES, I DO LOVE MY PAIN.....
coz at the end what it gives is absolute gain..!!!!


Note:- This is an amateur piece of poetry inspired by Sadia aunty....
hope you like it...she inspires me a lot..my eyes were moist...
after reading her para about her surgery and how she braved it!
God bless you aunty..we are with you..!! :)


The original para--'I Love My Pain' --
 http://meetme-sadia.blogspot.com/2009/09/i-wrote-these-lines-after-few-days-of.html

Can We Behave in the same manner...??

It was a sports stadium...
Eight Children were standing on the track to participate in
a running event....* Ready! * Steady! * Bang !!!
With the sound of Toy pistol, All eight girls started running.
Hardly had they covered ten to fifteen steps, when one of the
smaller girls slipped and fell down, Due to bruises and pain she
started crying. When the other seven girls heard the little girl
cry they stopped running, stood for a while and turned back.
Seeing the girl on the track they all ran to help. One among
them bent down, picked her up and kissed her gently and
enquired as to how she was. They then lifted the fallen girl
pacifying her. Two of them held her firmly while all seven
joined hands together and walked together towards the
winning post...
There was pin drop silence at the spectator's stand.
Officials were shocked. Slow claps multiplied to thousands
as the spectators stood up in appreciation.
Many eyes were filled with tears.....
YES. This happened in Hyderabad [INDIA], recently!
The sport was conducted by National Institute of Mental Health.
All these special girls had come to participate in this event...
They were spastic children.
Yes, they were Mentally Challenged.
What did they teach the WORLD?
Teamwork?
Humanity?
Equality among all??
We can't do this ever because we consider ourselves normal and intelligent!!

I wrote these lines few days after my surgery...3 months later I remember what I had gone through on that day..I thank Allah that I am fine now...

I LOVE MY PAIN
Going through another surgery was very very painful,
terrible for me and my family. It was my 4th major operation.
leave the small happenings...which i have experienced in my life.
(woh to hota hi rehta hai)...after a major surgery you have to
recover from 0% health to 100% again...
that takes a lot of time depending the type of your ailment.
But i cherish my painful days...its true...
because it makes me a better human.
when i see others wounded or in same situation...
i can understand their pain better....
You get to know who really cares for you...
Those who really care for you will be with you at the time of
your need... while others will not bother to waste time asking
about your health. The family bonding becomes thicker....
your loved once become more loving and caring...
Day one after surgery when i was in great pain...
i saw my daughter and her papa..worried...
there was pain in their eyes...emotional pain...
they cant see me in that situation...but they have to...
there was no choice for them...
i was not able to move my body...it was paralysed due to the
spinal injection i had before operation...
that whole night i vomited...i was almost half dead...
but the pain gave me the sense that i am alive...
and my loved ones are there to care for me...
i don't have to worry....my daughter...only 17 yrs old...
acted as my mother...as if she was helping a child...
and my husband as a guardian...
I am thankful to all my lovely people those were there for me...
emotionally and physically...
I pray that no one ever gets any type of painful experiences...
but its true...
I love my pain coz it makes me a better person...
luv u all.... :)

I don't want to cry

Again it was a long lonely day for me...nothing much to do....
Sobia told me to watch Twilight...so i watched the movie today...
It was a nice movie...but it lacked something at the end...
On the whole it was a good movie...

Even today our society's electricity was playing hide n seek....
why don't they fix the problem properly.....
I don't know whats their problem...!

So...all alone from 8:30 am to 6 pm...no one to talk...
nothing much to do...no one can understand how i feel...
what i go through ...i many times cry...all alone...
but there is nobody to listen either...
Now i think...i should have prepared for this before...
But now what to do....i have to start my life again....
as my blogs headline.. 'A New Beginning' ...
If i start something new...it will be a real new beginning for me....
There's a saying -- "Life begins at forty".
hahahaha.... am i forty yet??
Keep guessing...!
Till we meet again...
luv ya...