Pain Behind My Smile.... :-)

My Childhood Memories...

Bahut yaad aate hain bachpan ke woh din.. :)
jab rehte thy saath hum saare bhai-bahan..
woh ghar ke aangan mein sabke saath khelna..
aur woh chuttiyon mein Fauzia, Akku ka aana..
woh Asif bhaiya ke saath shararat karna..
woh Ammi ka daantna aur Abba ka samjhana..
baat-baat pe hum sabka ladna-jhagadna..

kitne pyare thy bachpan ke woh din..
bahut yaad aate hain bachpan ke woh din..

Woh garmi ki dopahar mein chhaton pe khelna..
woh bhaiyon ke saath mera patang udana..
woh chess aur carrom ke muqable rakhna..
aur woh haarne pe Arif bhaijaan ka board ulatna.. :D
woh takiyon (pillow) se ek doosre ko maarna..
khoob halla machana aur hansna - hasaana..

kitne pyare thy bachpan ke woh din..
bahut yaad aate hain bachpan ke woh din..

Woh exam ke waqt humara serious ho jaana..
aur chupp-chupp kar shararat bhi karna..
woh Bhaijaan ka kitabon ke beech novel rakhkar padhna..
woh unka dheere-dheere se khul-khulakar hansna..
Tariq bhai, Shannu apa ke ghar baar-baar jana..
woh Badi Ammi ke haanthon ki chai peena..

kitne pyare thy bachpan ke woh din..
bahut yaad aate hain bachpan ke woh din..

Arshi, Munna, Babu, Chikki ka hamesha saath khelna..
woh Arshi ka Munna se 'launde ko maarne' ko kehna..
kitne masoom aur befikr hote thy woh din..
Ammi-Abba ke saaye taley rehte thy jab hum..
yaad aati hain school-college ki saari saheliyan..
humara woh ghar aur Patna ki galiyan..

kitne pyare thy bachpan ke woh din..
bahut yaad aate hain bachpan ke woh din.. :)

Fear of "Wednesday"...

No dear...i am not writing any horror film story....
This is true story of my daughter Sobia...when she was
a little girl...a K.G class student....there used to be spelling
tests in their schools and believe me little children were
used to memorise such tough words....
So..i used to help little Sobia in learning the spellings...
Once, she had to learn days name....when i was trying to
let her learn....she learnt all the names...from Monday to
Sunday...except 'Wednesday'...
I tried to convince her that it was not that hard to learn...
she had learnt so many tough words...this was a very simple one.
But it was of no use....she just refused to learn it...
She started crying....my God...it took quite a few hours just to
convince her to give it a try.... and she did...and...wow...!
she learnt it in few seconds...i was happy that i didn't lost my patience...
I explained to her... give a try before just refusing to do something...
Even now when she says...that she can't do any particular thing....
I always say her...don't repeat the 'Wednesday' story again...!!
Moral of the story...don't just refuse the challenges coz they
seem to be tough...give a try...you'll sure succeed...!!
Refusing to accept the challenge is game lost before attempting to play....
Don't be a loser...Be a winner...!!

I wrote these lines few days after my surgery...3 months later I remember what I had gone through on that day..I thank Allah that I am fine now...

I LOVE MY PAIN
Going through another surgery was very very painful,
terrible for me and my family. It was my 4th major operation.
leave the small happenings...which i have experienced in my life.
(woh to hota hi rehta hai)...after a major surgery you have to
recover from 0% health to 100% again...
that takes a lot of time depending the type of your ailment.
But i cherish my painful days...its true...
because it makes me a better human.
when i see others wounded or in same situation...
i can understand their pain better....
You get to know who really cares for you...
Those who really care for you will be with you at the time of
your need... while others will not bother to waste time asking
about your health. The family bonding becomes thicker....
your loved once become more loving and caring...
Day one after surgery when i was in great pain...
i saw my daughter and her papa..worried...
there was pain in their eyes...emotional pain...
they cant see me in that situation...but they have to...
there was no choice for them...
i was not able to move my body...it was paralysed due to the
spinal injection i had before operation...
that whole night i vomited...i was almost half dead...
but the pain gave me the sense that i am alive...
and my loved ones are there to care for me...
i don't have to worry....my daughter...only 17 yrs old...
acted as my mother...as if she was helping a child...
and my husband as a guardian...
I am thankful to all my lovely people those were there for me...
emotionally and physically...
I pray that no one ever gets any type of painful experiences...
but its true...
I love my pain coz it makes me a better person...
luv u all.... :)

What to do??

Its back to normal life again....
Sobia and Farooque both are busy and i am all alone at home as usual.
Farooque my husband...a dedicated person, he loves his work very much. So, most of the time he comes late from office...work pressure my dear... and he can't just leave his work and come home.
My only child..my dear daughter Sobia...she is now in college... first year engineering... she just loves everything about computers... that's why she is doing CSE - computer science engineering.
Hmmm...so now you know both are too busy...
When Sobia was in school...till 12th my life was too busy...
I used to drop and pick Sobia from school, coaching.. etc...
But now... lets leave this topic... it will make me sad again....
So..now i am all alone at home..not much work to do...
i am thinking to do something...
First i thought i'll do some online work....
i searched...searched..and searched...in newspapers and on net but... i am confused now....don't know which is genuine site for online work...
lets see what happens....
i am still thinking what to do...how to utilise my free time....
something which suits me and it is not too tiring either....
Please suggest...... you all are most welcome.... :)
Now i am going to have my breakfast....its too late... and i am too hungry...
cya later...bye..tc...